For the last two weeks, I’ve been on a journaling binge, jotting down notes every ten minutes when a light bulb appeared over my head with something new. If my notebook wasn’t easily accessible, I’d spit out words on my iPad and in the event that neither was available, well then, napkins and receipt paper have worked for me too. I have to get these thoughts out and sometimes the thoughts don’t even form complete sentences, just key words scattered all over. But they make sense to me. I didn’t want to lose that moment – the overwhelming jolt of emotions that dominated my senses and helped me get over a recent loss and contributed to the pages upon pages of healing I can look back on and smile at. I’ve been bursting at the seams with inspiration and growth, with my coach telling me two weeks back, she believes it’s my season of fertility. And I believe it.
With cartoons blaring from the kids’ room and the boys running around the house, he often watched me, silently, from across the other end of the couch, smiling to myself. He never said anything, knowing I was deep in thought. I just loved watching them from the window – the adolescent couples intertwined under umbrellas like Siamese twins when it rained and the women on the journey home from work, itching to take their heels off to only put them back on a few hours later. The teenage boys who anxiously awaited spring’s arrival to get back on the court and the little girls who rode their bikes up and down the block for the one good day of the winter that came and went. I wrote and wrote. Random little notes full of mantras and visions that were planted in my spirit, future blog posts that’ll sit in my drafts until the Universe tells me it’s time to click Publish and secrets that’ll never see the light of day. I wrote until I fell asleep with my journal in my lap like a toy I couldn’t let go of because it gave me some peace.
I wanted to share some of the things that have blessed me over the last few weeks. Hopefully, it’ll help one of you today, this weekend, in the future…
- In continuing my reading of The Happiness Project, I’ve come up with my own “First Splendid Truth of 2014” : The most important voice you hear, the most powerful advice you’ll ever receive, is from the one that lives within. Intuition is real and every woman is born with it.
- “The days are long, but the years are short.” – Kaevon turned 5 last month & Kamryn turns 4 next month. I’m still in my twenties & I remember 4 & 5 vividly. Time FLIES. Appreciate the now.
- What feeds you? You are no better than what you eat.
- Does your life reflect the level of your vision? (via TD Jakes)
- The importance of maximizing your opportunities.
- “What’s destined for you is for you, regardless of what you don’t do. What’s not for you isn’t for you, regardless of what you do, do.” – @eboneemonique
- When the student is ready, the teacher appears.
- “Contemporary researchers make the argument: that it isn’t goal attainment but the process of striving after goals – that is, growth – that brings happiness.”
- The Beautiful Disruption by GG Renee Hill is such an amazing book. One of my favorite lines that describes my present thoughts on life: “Each of us is a whole universe, alive with our own realities, our worlds the reflections of our own minds.“
- “Shut the fear up & be proud of yourself.” – @GGReneeWrites
- On my journey of self-acceptance, I often questioned if the time I was spending with myself was too much. Was the alone time I set aside throughout the day, making me selfish? My coach said, I needed to be unapologetic in learning about me & there was beauty in shamelessly expressing myself.
Learning to be unapologetic while learning, in order to be fully happy, there were still some apologies I needed to dish out. Next phase of my journey: Coming to Terms & Closing Chapters.